In the meanwhile, while I dally here and there, life has carried on about me. Monday marks my entry into a new company, a new position, a new schedule. I am eager to undertake it, and I think it will be a good change.
As an aside, a bit of creative license:
Neither here nor there, I find myself caught in an imbalance too hot to touch and, seconds later, too cold to grasp. It feels like a game and, even though I’ve sworn off these kinds of bets, I find myself engaged in hoping for a pleasant outcome. Hoping in a fingers-crossed, knit-breath kind of way that good will come of things.
I’ve never vested much faith in karma, so the idea of deserving/undeserving strikes me as a particularly odd one.